Do you feel ready for December?
No. I'm on a day-by-day basis. My mother, who has liver cancer, has had a big dip in her health. Like big enough that we thought we were going to lose her the Friday before Thanksgiving. Right now, she needs someone with her 24/7, so that is taxing for me and my sister.
@LivyBug and my husband have stepped in and have been such a huge help. My cousin Sandra who is a retired nurse has been so very helpful with nursing tips as well as being my Mama's minister. My Aunt Jan came on Saturday and will leave Wednesday morning. She's been staying with Mama at night so that my sister and I can have a break. Her health has rebounded and she actually put on lipstick and "real clothes" for Thanksgiving.
We are supposed to be moving to my Grandma's house, which is right in front of my Mama's house. It's been dragging out for a couple of months now for a variety of reasons. My Mama really wanted to see us moved into the house and she was going to help me decorate it. Even if we get a chance to move in December, I don't know that she will remain strong enough to "play house" - what we call decorating. I'm still praying that it will happen. In the meantime, she has regained strength to sew on a family quilt that needed finishing, and I'm currently working on a crocheted snowflake and crystal banner. I also have a cross stitch project going as well. Olivia has been coming over and working on crocheting projects, too. Since we are mid-move, most of our house is boxed up. I refuse to decorate for Christmas because I won't be here most of the time, and I don't want to drag it out just to move in a couple of weeks. We all pitched in this past weekend and decorated Mama's house, and it's so beautiful and comfy.
What are you looking forward to in December?
I am looking forward to every single day I can have with my Mama. Really, just about anything these days is a miracle to me. I am absolutely struggling with depression, but I had a Come To Jesus Meeting last night with myself, and I've just got to stay focused on the positive things. So it's not that I haven't complained, or won't complain, but I need to focus on the good. This trickles down to every single loved one. I want to see them and hang out and eat good food and laugh and so much more. I am looking forward to celebrating my faith each day. I look forward to knowing completely and trusting God that the light shines so much brighter in the darkness, so that no matter how many trials come our way, we can still be the light and share the light.
