Journaling reads:
Shortly before Christmas in 2005, I was pregnant for the 7th time. We had lost 5 babies to miscarriage, one just six weeks before. I was deeply sad, physically exhausted and afraid to be hopeful. By Christmas Eve, I had a terrible cold that along with the all-day “morning” sickness had me feeling miserable. Still, I didn’t want to miss our tradition of candlelight service on Christmas Eve. That night, while I sat in church, amid the many candles representing hope and love, I had only one word in my heart. It was all I could articulate in the swirl of emotions... “please.”
Eight months later, Julia was born. Our rainbow baby, she was born after years of loss and grief, bringing us such great happiness and peace. Every year on Christmas Eve now, I sit next to her and hold her hand during the candlelight service. She’s the most miraculous gift, an answer to the whispered please from so many years ago. Her birthday is August 10th but the lighting of the candles on her cake is an emotional connection to the beginning of her story. It’s an echo of everything I was feeling that Christmas Eve and the happiness I still feel as we celebrate her life. On her 12th birthday, I looked at her sweet face and saw how the promise of that “please” continues to be fulfilled. She’s a light in our lives.
Such a beautiful page to your rainbow child. Oh my gosh hunnie I completely relate to this page, your way with words especially about loss resonates beautifully and is so profound. Yet you have put a positive spin on it and reinforced the old adage that 'if you ask, you shall receive’ and that you did. Simply stunning.
oh my goodness I'm a weepy mess!! I have no idea how many babies I have in heaven - 10 maybe? I have lost many as well and am all too familiar with that 'please'
ohh Laura, you made me cry in the middle of the coffee shop! what a beautiful story, so emotional! thank you so much for sharing your heart with us...and she's the perfect gift indeed!
Oh my Laura! That is some story! I love that Julia's birthday is so close to your heart both at Christmas time and in the summer/Aug. This was such a beautiful story to read! Thank your for sharing a piece of yourself with us! I love your challenge (not just bc it's a TN challenge!) so much - so thoughtful and provoking! Beautiful way to end MOC!
So beautiful Laura. So sorry for your losses.. I am a rainbow baby as well. My mom had a full term stillborn the year before me. I know just how special Julia is for you. Big hugs and thank you for the challenge and sharing something so personal.
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