So the answer is in...

[carilyne]

And it was no. Guess there's not a lot of optimism for over 50 counselors. At this point I'm pretty sad and totally lost. So good thoughts and prayers.

As far as my dad, his diagnosis is Parkinsons. However he is walking with a walker a little bit at a time, he sat up today for 3 hours, ate in the dining room and able to feed himself, and texts me every day. This is a 6'4" man with big hands who texts on a tiny keyboard and now he's able to do it with Parkinson's so the meds must be helping. My sister has cut off contact so this has been a (well I'm sure you can fill in the blank) ______of a week.

Another MITL? This is going to be another monumental one. Come on BYOC!!!

 

[jenn mccabe]

Oh Carilyne, I am so very sorry to read this. I hope even though this door closed for you, you will find a new one that is wide open and waiting for you.

Glad you have a Dx for your Dad, it must help to finally know, and so happy to hear the meds are working and you two can keep in touch every day. I'm sure he looks forward to his daily texts with you.

And I think BYOC will definitely cheer you up with the gorgeous colors! Big hugs to you!

 

[Tree City]

I am sorry it didn't work out, but like Jenn said, I hope you're able to quickly find your life's open door and walk right through. And having a diagnosis for your dad must be a least a bit of a relief for you, if only because now there is a course of treatment.

As Winston Churchill said, If you're going through hell, keep going.

 

[carilyne]

I am sorry it didn't work out, but like Jenn said, I hope you're able to quickly find your life's open door and walk right through. And having a diagnosis for your dad must be a least a bit of a relief for you, if only because now there is a course of treatment.

As Winston Churchill said, If you're going through hell, keep going.

Thanks for the chuckle. Hmm an idea for an art journal page. Thank you both so much for your support and reminding me to look for open doors.

 

[HeatherB]

I'm so sorry that things didn't work out the way you wanted, Carilyne. I hope you find a new opportunity soon that will give you a new outlook on life.

 

[Nemla]

You worked far to hard to let a minor set back like this beat you ! Back up on your horse,and ride again ! And I am so happy your Dad is doing better.

 

[ljonezy]

Oh Carilyne, I am so very sorry to read this. And having a diagnosis for your dad must be a least a bit of a relief for you,

 

[IntenseMagic]

So sorry things didn't work out as you would like. As others have said, when one door closes another opens. Things will happen as they are meant to and I'm sure something better is on the horizon for you. Glad your dad has a diagnosis and is doing better.

 

[HeyJude]

So sorry to hear that things didn't work out the way you hoped. But I'm as sure as everyone else is that it just means there is a better door waiting for you. I hope you find it soon.

Kudos to your Dad's texting abilities! I have tiny hands and still can't manage to text quickly or accurately on my phone. Enjoy your daily texting banter.

 

[jk703]

I'm so sorry, Carilyne! I know it's hard when we are disappointed in certain outcomes. I hope that you get the best opportunity and lots of happiness! Hugs!

I'm happy to hear that your Dad has a diagnosis. The wondering is so hard! Hoping it all goes smoothly now and he keeps doing well!

 

[kimingvtx]

Oh Carilyne -- Hugs!

 

[Lindzee]

Carilyne, big hugs. I'm sorry things didn't work out as you expected. Stay positive and the right thing will come along.
I'm glad you dad has improved a bit. My brother was diagnosed with Parkinson's a few years ago, and what I can say is that it's better knowing what you are dealing with so you fight back with the right strategy. I was devastated when I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis two years ago. See my mom passed at 72 from complications of the same disease. I'm almost 67... The first thing my Rheumatologist said to me was: This is not your mothers arthritis. We have made many advances in the last ten years. And look at me, I have a few difficult days, but I think I'm doing great. Parkinson's is the same. Treatments are available which will give your dad a good quality of life for a long time.

 

[Karen]

I'm really sorry for the one closed door Carilyne, but as others have said, that just means the right opportunity hasn't found it's way to you just yet. I'm glad that your dad has a diagnosis and is doing better. Sorry about your sister though. You're strong and you can handle this!

 

[gonewiththewind]

Glad that your dad has a diagnosis, and that he is communicating with you. I'm so sorry about your sister and I have been praying about that, that her heart will be softened!

It's so awful when our heart's longing is given a "no" or a "not now." Here are a few scriptures that help me when I'm struggling with disappointment (like now, you know what I'm dealing with in my own health situation and I'm crushed in spirit, but I will overcome!). Perhaps they will help you as well.

I know not everyone is the same faith or religion and some might not believe, so I really hope I don't offend anyone by sharing this.

I [God] know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. ~ Jeremiah 29:11

If your heart is broken, you’ll find God right there; if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath. ~ Psalm 34:18

Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good. ~ Romans 8:28

Pile your troubles on God’s shoulders—he’ll carry your load, he’ll help you out. He’ll never let good people topple into ruin. ~ Psalm 55:22

Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life. ~ Philippians 4:6-7

Stay with God! Take heart. Don’t quit. I’ll say it again: Stay with God. ~ Psalm 27:14

“God has lost track of me. He doesn’t care what happens to me”? Don’t you know anything? Haven’t you been listening? God doesn’t come and go. God lasts. He’s Creator of all you can see or imagine. He doesn’t get tired out, doesn’t pause to catch his breath. And he knows everything, inside and out. He energizes those who get tired, gives fresh strength to dropouts. For even young people tire and drop out, young folk in their prime stumble and fall. But those who wait upon God get fresh strength. They spread their wings and soar like eagles, They run and don’t get tired, they walk and don’t lag behind. ~ Isaiah 40:28-31

Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am. ~ Philippians 4:13

 

[carilyne]

Thank you Cheryl. That helps. I need to keep that handy.

It's hard to describe where I'm at. Not the usual depression at all about any of these things. But school has me bewildered.

 

[scrapsandsass]

Ugh. That stinks! So sorry you are dealing with a big heap of yuk. Hang in there, chickee. You are strong and will find a path. And family issues are always challenging. I hope your sister pulls her head out of her... well, you know.

That is pretty cool that your dad is communicating, and yay for meds helping.

Big ooshy hugs to you!!

 

[LynnG]

I am so sorry. That's tough. And so sorry about your Dad. Thinking of you and sending a virtual hug from the other side of the world xx

 

[Jan]

So sorry for all you are going thru. There is another scripture that says God will not give us more than we can handle. That one helps me a lot. Hugs to you.

 

[Danyale]

Aw, a mixed set of emotions this week for you I am sure. I can only send you some virtual {{hugs}} for your not so great personal news. It is always hard when things don't work the way we wish - gosh, I just know something else will come forward for you!

Your Dad is a great character - how about him and the texting?! We have a similar situation with my FIL where he is now using a debit card...WOW! hahaha! He is not texting, that is major for anyone at their age I think with new technology - especially with your Dad's DX.

 

[cookingmylife]

1st @gonewiththewind What translation of the Bible are you using? I'd really love to read that version.

2nd @carilyne from someone who was looking for a job while going through a divorce at 43 with no college degree OR ability to pass a typing test, I fortunately didn't know how under qualified I was for most any halfway well paying job because I had lived outside the US for twenty years. In the subsequent 20+ years, I was hired for other reasons that weren't necessarily on my resume. In all three positions, I was hired by women who were older than me. Just sayin'

There is the right job out there for you. Keep taking the next indicated steps whatever they are and you and your job will connect. I would give yourself some time to feel the disappointment because that's really a valid feeling right now. In fact I feel it for you too! pouty lips stuck out on my face

3rd As serious as your Dad's diagnosis is, it's great that he can do so much and that medicine keeps making strides. He sounds like a trooper! And hugs all around...except maybe not your sister right now.