RJMJ
Chaos in life can be therapy expressed in your art
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and another page from @RJMJ Rhonda is a very special scrapper to me, we share some issues, emotionally in life, health wise and in life in general, and we both scrap with our heart and love filling the page..... here she amazes me with a page for the Scraplift Challenge.... and as always, she gives it yer own angle and creates an impressive page, plus she explains us how her mind worked in creating it!!!!!
@MrsPeel ...HELLO!!!...MY DEAR!!!...It's been so long since I have heard from you...Not a day went by that I didn't wonder how you & Sarita were doing...and hoped you both were well...Then I heard how you have been going along...I was so sorry to hear of your more complicated health issues...just like me...When I broke my neck & arm...I thought I was dead...I went head first into a brick wall in the stairwell where I was living with my husband then...I still remember all of it...The fall...the flying through the air & all...I closed my eyes...prayed & said I was sorry to Ray & I Love! you...I woke up on the floor screaming in pain...all the neighbors were there...& Ray was crying...I could hear that the ambulance was on the way...I wore a collar for almost a year after that & spent months in intensive care before they moved me to the regular floor of the hospital...a brace on my arm too...I wasn't allowed to move my neck or arm for months...My sweetest! husband took care of me with so much love & gentle kindness...I thought how did I get so lucky to meet him & have him fall in love with me too...all those years ago now...26 then...now 27 years...He was the only reason I got through that horrid time in my life...without him...I wouldn't have made it...I couldn't walk for weeks in a wheel chair...I had to learn to walk again...So much pain & physio!!!...He was my cheerleader.!!!...And then suddenly...he started having really bad pain in his legs...a sore throat & headaches...Like migraines...His stupid! doctor didn't do her job...& thought he had a leg infection & a viral infection in his throat & that was causing all the headaches...mixed with all the time he spent taking care of me...He was exhausted!...!!!...We trusted her...& she was wrong!!!...I knew she was wrong...when the medication wasn't working...His legs were getting worse...his pain & headaches...& then he lost his voice too...then he fell...twice in 3 days...I had to call the ambulance for him...& even then....he didn't want to leave me...Can you imagine...I had to talk him into going to the hospital...2 days later...He has cancer [we didn't know how much or how bad yet] more tests...3 days later...It is terminal...Stage 4 Brain Cancer...Throat cancer that moved to his brain...& had also spread to his heart,legs,tummy...They couldn't imagine how he was up walking around in that state of illness & pain he was now in...I told them...he was taking care of me from my near fatal fall...& probably ignored his own pain as to take care of me...But nonetheless...He never smoked...The doctors told us that sometimes in rare cases...people can have cancer for years & have little to no symptoms...His all came on so suddenly & hit him hard...2 days later I put him in Hospice Care at the hospital...4 days later....he was gone...He died in 9 days!!!!...I still can't believe how fast it all happened...It will be a year on June 9th 2024...12 days from now...Ray was my everything...I went to him with everything...every problem...every joy...every success!!!...He was always there for me!!!...I have no one now!...When Ray passed away...He took parts of me with him...That's why I feel just wrong inside & out...I have changed everything about myself slowly in the year since he has passed...I grew my hair out..I have a bob cut now...no more red hair either...All my natural ugly brown/grey hair...I wasn't able to color my hair because of certain meds I was taking & of course my inability to move my neck & arm too...& my hair was also falling out for a time...I dislike the way I look & feel...I have also lost almost 95 pounds!!!...I'm literally a shadow of my former self...I also have changed the way I dress...I am literally...a totally different person now...Life is very difficult,frustrating,angering,sad & difficult beyond explaining all the different kinds of pain I'm in...I am going to stop talking now...As always,I have talked on for too long now...xo Rhonda...Thank You! for listening!!!...As always my dear Cynthia!!!...
...I am so HAPPY! to see you here...Thank You! for always being the Wonderful! person you always are!!!..Always so kind & supportive to me...I was thrilled to see your comments & face here!!!...You made my day so much brighter! & better!!!...Please take care!!!...I hope you will feel better too soon!...If only I could hug you both right now!!!...I would!!!...Sending you both love & hugs from me!!!...
... I think that is also the reason why I have come back to scrapbooking again too...I feel the support here...& the love!...
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