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An Apology re: Cynthia's ATC cards

carilyne

carilyne

It's only impossible if you think it is
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I owe everyone who participated in the ATC Cards for Cynthia back in August/September an apology. I got them all gathered and printed. Had cute little ATC's for identifying the artist and any messages. They were put in a little binder that I covered.
But then things "Blew up" with my father and sister. I started the story with the Turning Point page I made, but the next page I can't show. I found out something that nearly had me over the edge and I literally spent half the day in bed unable to get up--lasting for a couple weeks. I also started school in there which was a mistake. But I was looking for anything to hold on to.
So I'm sorry they never got mailed. They sit here beside me as I scrap -- hoping for the day when I can touch them again. It brings back the memories so fast I just don't try anymore.
I've waited to see if they got mentioned. I had told Laura there was a problem but I didn't come face you. More than embarrassed I was at the end of my rope. I lost a good friend during it; I couldn't risk losing my support here.
I haven't wanted to post more about things, but reality is I'm struggling a lot right now. I gave up school. So many things have happened. This morning I wasn't sure I was going to even try MOC anymore -- just disappear. My son and I know how to talk to each other when we are in these stages so he helped me look at where it started and what I need to do. Maybe this is step 1. So if my ATC card becomes my avatar or signature -- you'll understand. It's rebuilding time and you know I don't give up.
So I hope you understand. @MrsPeel I hope you understand and you know more of the details
Thanks for listening.
 
you are our friend, and goodness, we love you. All is forgiven, isn't that what you would do? Forgive us?
get over here and hug me...harder!
 
and I should keep shoulder pads in my shirts, for the boogers...
blow your nose, cause you are going to be inundated with some love...just cry thru each response and bask in the love!
 
Hugs Carilyne, don't you fret about this anymore, don't add this as a burden, we are here for YOU! Hugs again.
 
Oh sweety! I'm only sorry that this was a burden for you and that it almost kept you away from us! No worries. I'm sure @MrsPeel is more than understanding too, knowing her good heart. It was so good of you to have taken the initiative in the project. It's not too late to mail them now. ;)
 
Oh my Carilyne...you are loved here. I am so sorry that the ATC cards caused you any stress. That was the first ATC card I ever made and you helped me with that. Please stay...we all help each other here.
 
You're stuck with me. It was the embarrassment and not know how to approach the whole mess. It was the confusion I was in.
Thank you all so much for your words.
Someone on my comments asked how my dad and I are doing. Unfortunately we can only text and he is in Fresno CA. There are messes there that prevent me from going there.
 
Ahem. You are not allowed to leave! Life happens. Life goes to pot. Life sucks. And people forgive. Don't let something like life going crazy on you cause you to walk away from us. :grouphug:happyhug.
 
It is so hard when life hands us more than we can deal with, but I am glad you have found yourself facing forward again. You are so much stronger for every time you come through these events. Believe in yourself, and know that we are always here with open hearts and no judgement.

Sending out thoughts for peace of heart and light of burden. Big big (((hugs)))
 
I agree! There is nothing to fret over.

While you're confessing, I'll confess that I never actually finished making mine. So now I'll get it finished and get it sent off and it won't be late! LOL

You are among friends here. None of us are perfect. And this is FUN zone, so don't you worry one second about this. I'm SO glad you said something and relieved yourself of the burden.

Now, breathe a deep breath and get back to scrapping and sending me puns on FB! Ha!
 
gonewiththewind said:
I agree! There is nothing to fret over.

While you're confessing, I'll confess that I never actually finished making mine. So now I'll get it finished and get it sent off and it won't be late! LOL

You are among friends here. None of us are perfect. And this is FUN zone, so don't you worry one second about this. I'm SO glad you said something and relieved yourself of the burden.

Now, breathe a deep breath and get back to scrapping and sending me puns on FB! Ha!
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I haven't seen any! Loved BamaHenge, Lady of the Lake, etc -- actually caught you live on Henge. Yay for walking!
 
Danyale said:
It is so hard when life hands us more than we can deal with, but I am glad you have found yourself facing forward again. You are so much stronger for every time you come through these events. Believe in yourself, and know that we are always here with open hearts and no judgement.

Sending out thoughts for peace of heart and light of burden. Big big (((hugs)))
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Thank you! I must say this ATC was therapeutic with the I am strong thing (I keep telling myself the same)...
 
Carilyne, I remember what happened with your father & I'm so sorry. I knew it bothered you at the time, but I didn't know how badly. You have a ton of us, including me, to reach out to whenever you need. I'm sure Cynthia had no bad feelings about it. Those of us with strong emotions know just how crippling some situations can be. I know you believe in therapy. Scrap, talk, use your skills, & don't let yourself punish yourself. I feel for you so much. You have my love & support whenever you need. Don't hesitate to reach out. @MrsPeel will back me up on this, we need each other in this community, this family. Sometimes we need to accept love until we can love ourselves enough to move on. All my love.
 
Wow, Carilyne, I had no idea.
We all have stuff happen at times and it's about getting up, dusting ourselves off and facing life again.
Sending you big hugs.
 
Everyone else has said it so beautifully. I will add my own hugs to you!! Life is ugly and messy sometimes, but always know that everyone here is with you every step of the way!!
 
hugs! everyone else had said it so beautifully. there is nothing to apologise for, take care of yourself and stay around
 
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