...which I try to keep as brief as possible. (I know, difficult if you know me! but one can but try) even though words aren't the easiest for me right now. I don't usually like to post sad or illnesses stuff because I know all of us have our fair share, try to be as positive as I can, but don't want you to think I have forgotten you, especially in this holiday which means so much to so many of us. Many of you know I was diagnosed with heart failure and I have been going for some tests to determine which avenue to pursue. Monday 11th I had to have an angiogram CT scan, we were in hospital almost the whole day, but ended up not having it (long story, with some incompetence by the cardiologists putting me at even more risk) . The day was exhausting, but as if this wasn't enough, I got the call from my mum I was dreading for a few months now. My dad is dying, we couldn't get on a plane even trying and willing to pay almost £2000 (almost US $3000), for each of us, one of my cousins offered to pay for both of us...(my 21 years old daughter in case you are new to the Pad's family) We stopped trying yesterday as the doctors told us he has very little time, so now I am just praying for no pain for him and trusting he will be in a better place and will never be forgotten, as he has touched so many lives apart from making mine a better one with his teachings... I'm extremely sad, even more so as Sarita is very, very close to my parents and she is suffering so much too, but wanted to come here as so, so many of you are close friends of mine, both those whom I have met in person and others whom I have known for years (almost 10 in some cases) online but our friendship is as tight as any "real" life ones, and also those whom I have just made acquaintance but have been learning to love in a very short time... ...all of you are big part of my heart and are present in our everyday, I am hugely grateful for all the love and support of this wonderful scrap family. I'm not sure these words can express how much I love and treasure this community I'm not sure I can ever express my gratitude for having a place in this amazing family. But I thought better try a bit than let time go without saying it. I hope you all have a wonderful time, I may not be around in the next week or so but will try pull myself together to be here to be with you all for MOC. Super huge huggzz to you all, a Merry Christmas and a great New Year, with all my heart.
Cynthia, I am SO sorry to hear this!! I am praying for your father to pass in peace with no pain. I am praying for your mother, as seeing a partner go is never easy. I am praying for your daughter, losing your grandparents is definitely difficult and their loss is felt forever. And I am praying for you...I cannot imagine how you feel not being able to be there. But also going through the medical things you have been going through. I know your dad understands and your health is of utmost importance. Hugs to you, my friend, in this difficult time. Prayers that memories of the good times can help you through this tough time. Also, Merry Christmas to you and Sarita.
I'm so, so sorry to hear about your dad, my friend. I know how painful it is to lose a family member (especially during the holiday season) and I can't imagine how hard that is to not be there to love on him and support your mama. Sending my love and prayers to you and Sarita, your mom and dad. I hope that his passing is peaceful and painless. Love you!
I'm so sad and sorry, my friend. This is so hard for you guys, and being so far away is even more heartbreaking. Many hugs are being sent to you. My wish for you is peace and calm to weather the storms that you are dealing with. I can't change the situation but hope that all that love and prayers bring you up! Thinking of you and your family.
Oh Cynthia, I am so sorry to hear all that you're going through. Sending you all the love and peace and strength you will need. Thanks for the update and I wish you and Sarita and your family the very best.
I am so sorry to hear what you are going through right now. I'll be thinking of you, your daughter and your family.
I understand completely. 21 years ago I had to get on a plane to fly to where my parents were staying for the winter. I did get to spend the last week with my mother although she was in the hospital the whole week. She passed the day after Christmas so Dad and I had the task of packing things up and driving home (a 20 hour drive that we did in 2 days). My only difference is that I was already scheduled to fly down to see them... I just had to go down 2 days early and was thankful a travel agent could get it arranged for me (no internet reservations in those days!) Most of all take care of yourself during this time.
Cynthia. My heart is sad for you right now. But I am praying for you, for Sarita, for your mom and dad, for your cardiologists. I haven't been around the Lilypad for an incredibly long time, but you have always been a favorite person of mine. You are kind and welcoming and add so much life and joy here. I appreciate you immensely.
Hugs, Cynthia, to both you and Sarita in this very sad time. I can't imagine how hard it must be to be parted from your family and not being able to go see your dad for one last time. Sending you lots of love.
Ohhh Cynthia...my heart hurts for you and your family. I wish I knew what to say that would bring you a little bit of comfort, but I find I'm a better shoulder to cry on in situations like this than I am with words. I'll keep you guys in my thoughts and the Dr.'s are able to keep him pain free during these last days. **Hugs**
I love you my dear sweet friend. I am so very sorry about your Dad and have been keeping you, Sarita and your parents in my prayers. Never easy and being so far away is very hard. I love you my dear friend. I am here for you. Both CJ and I are sending our love and thoughts. XO
I've been thinking of you. I know when you're quiet it's not a good sign... It's hard to lose a parent, no matter at what age. At least you know he has lived a full life, he has been loved and he will be remembered. I lost my father 14 years ago, around that time of the year, and it still hurts... Christmas have been a sad holiday for me ever since... I'm sending you a big hug and I'm looking forward for things to get back to normal. Love you!
So sorry to hear this Cynthia - sending hugs your way and wishing you strength and peace to get through this difficult time.
My sweet Cynthia, I'm so very sorry. It must be just so hard not to make it back. Add to that your health problems (and just issues with the hospital!) and it seems so frustrating. You are in my thoughts and prayers, and so is your father.
Holidays or not, there is never a good time for all that you're going through. Wishing you peace and comfort.
Hugs to you, dear Cynthia! My whole heart goes out to you. I'm so sorry that you aren't able to be there, but I am sure your dad feels your love. I know it is so hard to lose your daddy. It's still hard for me every day. Sending all my love and prayers to you, Sarita, your mom, your dad, and all of those who love him. Wishing you peace and comfort. Please take care of yourself as well.