I can't imagine! I'm not a survivor but I do have three aunts who have beaten breast cancer (one of them twice), a cousin and an aunt-in-law. I also currently have another cousin battling it and a cousin-in-law battling ovarian cancer. It is no stranger to our family but also no stranger to defeat in our family! I even have a cousin who beat childhood leukemia. So, I'm sure it must be terrifying waiting but you see, even from this thread, that you are not alone! I do hope that it is nothing, though.
I am, twice, though it was controlled with the removal of the cysts but from 2010 to 1014 I had to have mammograms every 3 months. Now, this last time, in 2010 (first was 2006) one hospital was ready to remove all the problematic tissue in the left breast..., I had 8 core biopsies, they had me going every week and they were telling me nothing...they had lost the initial mammogram....in the end, when I stormed out of the clinic breaking things with one of my crutches, because after 6 weeks they wanted me to come again "next week when they should be givi9ng me the results of the last core biopsy..... I had the mother of Sarita's (my daughter) s best friend at the time offering to pay for me to go private. When I called my GP, she said she called the hospital and spoke to them, and they said they weren't sure if the tissue was compromised, or that :MAYBE" {maybe EIGHT TiMES!!!!) they have grabbed the tissue samples from the wrong place, so they have booked the OR for the Wednesday the following week (this was a Friday) and that they were removing the whole affected tissue. So, she said, mention this to the private doctor. He was an amazingly sweet, soft manner, old guys, very English, but without any cold traits in him..... he found the mammogram the Royal Free hospital had not found in 8 weeks in 3 days, and when I told him what was going on, his answer was : "ohhhh noooooo, you don't wanna let them do that!!!! you will be left with a hole!!!" no, we will do this: I dont want you to spend more money in this place , I will see you in 2 days in my NHS clinic at the Whittington (another local hospital to us) and I will remove the cysts. He did. 3 times in the next 4 years. I have to say, the mind frame and your heart and faith are key factors..... so be positive. Even if it is cancerous tissue, breast is the higher clear cases at this time in history, so, just make sure you trust the doctors or get a second opinion if you aren't sure, but be positive.......
I'm all over the place. I'm calm then I'll freak out then I'm determined...I'm still more worried about having the actual biopsy than I am the results. I have such extreme anxiety and they won't let Michael in there to hold my hand. I'm worried the doctor won't be able to get to the one that's way in the back. I'm worried the numbing shots won't work (numbing meds don't always work on me). I'll survive - the biopsy and the diagnosis, which will take a week to 10 days to come back. I'm just so glad all of you are here for support!
Sounds familiar. You will make it through this okay. They are used to getting to the back ones and it's going to be okay. They say your thinking affects it all so try thinking these numbing shots will work. They may be able to prescribe something for the anxiety since your husband is driving. And yep we are always here. Hang in there. Praying for you.
Carilyne said it very well! I'll add you to my prayer list. I'm sorry they won't let Michael back with you. Hopefully you can put your worries aside for Pascha, and enjoy yourself and the food.
My Aunt is a survivor and if she's still alive, it would be about 45 years since her surgery! You have my prayers and hugs for the best possible outcome AND the patience to go through the various wait times. <~~~ Sometimes that is the hardest part...not knowing.
Tomorrow is my biopsy. My main goal for today is to remember to shave my armpits before tomorrow. I have my follow-up appointment for the results on the following Thursday. I am scared. I think I'm going to scrap this process. I have an old photo (somewhere) from a long time ago when I had my first mammogram...thinking at the time that I would scrap that brief scare and I never did. This time I want to document it - at least by journaling, maybe by some art journaling as someone suggested. Prayers are much appreciated.
Prayers coming your way. Yes scrap the process. You'll be glad you did. There will be days when you wonder what you did to get through and stay semi-cheerful. I'm hoping it's another scare but you know when I went through the scare last year I could not remember how I had made it through before. Again I'll be thinking and praying for you. You will do alright tomorrow.
I just found this thread Mary, and I'll add my prayers for a good outcome and strength for you to handle the stress of the ordeal. I have a sister going through breast cancer treatment now and I've had a scare in the past - though fortunately the results were good as I hope yours will be.
thinking of you, prayers with you since when first I read this, have faith, keep positive thinking, you have a whole, amazing great family here in spirit with you on top of your close loved ones, huge huggzzz.
Hey Mary - I'm late to this thread - haven't been around much this week as I'm having my first of 6 weeks of daily radiotherapy as a follow-up to the surgery I had on my right breast in late February (to remove two cancers). Be very kind to yourself - I have found that the mental and the emotional stuff has been harder to deal with than the physical. But you will be fine - whatever the biopsies reveal. Early is good. Early is great. Usually early means (in the words of my surgeon), kittens and not lions to deal with. Hugs.
