cinderella

October Muse

October Muse
cinderella, Oct 31, 2019
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I was about to skip this month, because Cynthia's challenges make me dig deep and find things that I don't feel like dealing with (I prefer ignoring them!)
I had made a page for week 1, it was a nice artsy page but didn't catch the spirit of the challenge. Right now I'm having a hard time finding things that I love about me, accepting me as I am, and other stuff that I won't bore you with.
Then for week 2 there was no way I'd scrap about my nose! Even though it's big enough to cover a whole page, KWIM?
And for week 4 I was about to make a page about the craziness of DSD, the huge amount of CT pages I had to post and how it was exhausting but totally fun. But that wasn't the most important thing in October, because it was also my birthday month. And I decided to fit all weeks in one page.
The journaling may have been lost beneath all those layers, so here it is:
week 1: "scrap about a part of your body you love/like"
EYES: I love my eyes. But only when I wear mascara, aka when they're fake!
week 2: "scrap a page about a part of yourself you dislike, or don't feel comfortable with, but have learned to love or adapt."
NOSE: The NOSE. I’ve always hated it. I can't really do anything about it, but I'm glad I don't see it all the time. I just avoid mirrors.
week 3: "something we LOVE about ourselves spiritually"
SENSE OF HUMOR: Black, silly, inappropriate. That's what people love me for. Or, most likely, hate me for.
week 4: "The two sides of you THIS MONTH"
DSD was crazy! 33 pages posted within a 3 day weekend. And I found time to play games & scrap! Loved every minute!
40: Turning 40. 40! Feeling old. Need to lose weight. Need to make changes. Feeling stuck. Bad feelings stealing the joy of the happy moments. Feeling everything is a chore that needs to get done. Thinking there's no time to sit back and enjoy. Afraid to dig deeper in my soul. All these make me think, and I ask myself: have I ever loved me? I guess I've never loved me enough.

credits:
Paula Kesselring:
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MrsPeel, Dalis, blueberries and 2 others like this.
    • KarenB
      LOVE this!!! Your journaling alone is brilliant. I love the grungy, true art journal style and the layout held my attention for quite a while. Fabulous :) :beat
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    • AJK
      I LOVE your page! As to the nose- my daughter has felt the same for many years. She has a beautiful face, with a bump in the center of her profile. Seven years ago we learned that there is a reason for that bump. It is part of her Cherokee heritage. Now she has a different view of it, if you will pardon the pun.
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    • mcurtt
      I love how you were able to combine the entire month into one page! I love your scribbled journaling, your messy style, and even your nose! (BTW... I had referenced that my chin was my worst feature (passed on down to me from my mother), but my second worst feature is my nose (just like my father's). Sometimes you just can't win.
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    • Dalis
      I knew I liked you! My sense of humor is dark as they come... LOL!!!!
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    • Dalis
      btw. I love how you fit everything in there, it looks amazing!
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    • MrsPeel
      I'm in a very very difficult mind set right now (had a HUGE argument with Sarita 15 minutes ago- lomg story) so it is difficult to find the right words..... but, first, I am amazed with the mess that reflects the mess: the visuals reflecting the feelings doesn't always happen, you have to have talent to produce a "mess" like this, but you also know I love your talent ..... you know I love you, and UI may have sometimes scared you off because I am very honest when I love someone enough.....the page is amazing, the fact that you feel your heart full of trust to share this with us is amazing, and I really REALLY hope it can be a way to find all of us, the rest of us who struggle, maybe not exactly with the same things you struggle, but who struggle every day and fight with he help of the sisters, and you have here for sure, apart I am sure there are other places where you have many sisters too) many many sisters who adore you, starting by your momma here (MEEEEEEE!!!!!) and you can come to us any time. Making changes to be able to better yourself is NOT impossible...no matter how difficult you think ity will be, I am the living proof of that..... this is HUGE, this page, because this could be the start of your making changes, even if starting very small, to turn the table and start being about you, the happy you. Don't think there is happiness or unhappiness..... none is happy all the time (especially in this qorld of ours, everywhere in the world) but there is a way of balancing things to weight more for the good. I'm with a feeling in heart that I can't find words for, because I don't want to feel happy that you feel sad, but also have a tiny bit of pride that you decided to gather the strength to share this with us, and that the October Muse was a path to at least confront some things. You know I am here for you...if anything, we can cry together and hug each other..... and then try to come out for ar together. LOVE you girl, and I am not saying this lightly.
      we ll talk later, but THANK YOU for this page.
      Thank you so much for playing with us!!!!
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      I'm also preparing a Muse standouts, only want to finish looking at the week 4 to start it....but you know you already have a place in the Froggy Faves, in the GSO blog and in the heart of so many people all over digi land, most certainly in mine, and will be in the new thread too.LOveYOU
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