I was about to skip this month, because Cynthia's challenges make me dig deep and find things that I don't feel like dealing with (I prefer ignoring them!)
I had made a page for week 1, it was a nice artsy page but didn't catch the spirit of the challenge. Right now I'm having a hard time finding things that I love about me, accepting me as I am, and other stuff that I won't bore you with.
Then for week 2 there was no way I'd scrap about my nose! Even though it's big enough to cover a whole page, KWIM?
And for week 4 I was about to make a page about the craziness of DSD, the huge amount of CT pages I had to post and how it was exhausting but totally fun. But that wasn't the most important thing in October, because it was also my birthday month. And I decided to fit all weeks in one page.
The journaling may have been lost beneath all those layers, so here it is:
week 1: "scrap about a part of your body you love/like"
EYES: I love my eyes. But only when I wear mascara, aka when they're fake!
week 2: "scrap a page about a part of yourself you dislike, or don't feel comfortable with, but have learned to love or adapt."
NOSE: The NOSE. I’ve always hated it. I can't really do anything about it, but I'm glad I don't see it all the time. I just avoid mirrors.
week 3: "something we LOVE about ourselves spiritually"
SENSE OF HUMOR: Black, silly, inappropriate. That's what people love me for. Or, most likely, hate me for.
week 4: "The two sides of you THIS MONTH"
DSD was crazy! 33 pages posted within a 3 day weekend. And I found time to play games & scrap! Loved every minute!
40: Turning 40. 40! Feeling old. Need to lose weight. Need to make changes. Feeling stuck. Bad feelings stealing the joy of the happy moments. Feeling everything is a chore that needs to get done. Thinking there's no time to sit back and enjoy. Afraid to dig deeper in my soul. All these make me think, and I ask myself: have I ever loved me? I guess I've never loved me enough.
credits:
Paula Kesselring:
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