No Longer a Wall Flower

May 2018 M3 Main Kit

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It occurred to me in late August that this was my 40 year since high school graduation. I had not heard anything about an reunion but was not surprised since I have lost touch with all of my high school friends. I went looking on Facebook and found a group for my class. They had had a reunion in early August. As I looked through the pictures, it brought back so many feelings of inadequacy, of not being popular, a wall flower, etc. I was "missing" in the sense that no one knew where I was and as I searched the group, I noticed that no one was asking where I was either. I posted a "hey I am not missing - sorry I missed a great party" type post in the group and went to bed.

The next morning those feelings were still floating around when I read verse Psalm 37. Verse 7 in my words is: Be still before the Lord, wait patiently before him. Fret not over the prosperity and success of others. I wrote: As I sit here thinking of high school and how I never fit in how I have been "missing" and yet no one seemed to notice - always just an awkward girl ---> These verses bring peace - a reminder of whose view of me truly matters: GOD'S. I am his beloved daughter and that is all that matters in the final end. Daughter of the Most High King.

With my self-view adjusted, I checked Facebook. Well, several people said hi to my post and I got about 7 friend requests. Granted, they were from the other "no bodies" but I was surprised that people remembered me. One guy remembered that we had known each other since 4th grade and he was just an acquaintance. One of the people that found me me was once my best friend in high school. We lost touch as when I went off to college and she got married and had kids. I am looking forward to reestablishing that relationship. Anyway, it was very cool how God used the next passage I was going to read to heal my hurting heart. He does that often because he loves me. The amazing thing is that he loves everyone that way, even those that mock, abuse, and deny him. Wow!