This Month's Monthly Muse Challenges Have Been Both Wonderful,Challenging & Therapeutic All At The Same Time...I Am Continuing On My Personal Journey Of Discovery With Week #4's Theme..."Finding Yourself"...
*After Losing My Mom,Almost Losing My Boyfriend/Partner Of 23 Years(Heart Attack) & Almost Dying Myself(Blood Clots In My Legs Traveled To My Heart Causing A PAE...My Heart Literally Stopped Beating 3 Times-Once Here In The Apartment When The Paramedics Were Working On Me & Twice On The Table At The Hospital)...That Was Almost 2 Years Ago For Both Of These Life Altering Events & My Mom's Passing Was A Few Years Back Now...With All That Being Said We Have Both Had Our Health Struggles Even To This Day...My Health Struggles Have Gone To The Forefront Of My Life...It Has Changed Me As A Person & Has Changed My Way Of Looking At The World...I Can't Do All The Things That I Used To & I Have Had To Adjust My Thinking Etc...But With Acceptance Comes A Little Bit Of Freedom...That Doesn't Mean I Have Given Up On Getting Better Either...In Fact It is Just The Opposite...I Am More Determined Than Ever To Overcome...
*So For This Layout I Have Taken A More Philosophic Approach To The Subject In Question...I May Have Lost One Purpose Or 2 Along The Way But I Have A More Pressing Purpose In My Life Right Now...Until I Started Working On This Layout I Didn't Even Realize That I Had Already Found My Purpose...For Awhile I Was Just Wandering Around In My Head Wracking My Brain Trying To Figure Out My Purpose In Life Now...Getting More & More Confused...Getting Better,From The Inside Out & Finding My True Self...IS MY NEW PURPOSE IN LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...I Just Had A Wonderful Light Bulb Moment...Getting Better & Improving Myself Is The Only Way That I Can Move On & Find My Next Truest Purpose In Life...I Certainly Don't Know How Long This Will Take But Each Day Is A Journey Of Both Struggle,Self Determination & Celebration...Knowing That I Have Learned So Much About Myself & How Far I Have Come Along My Journey Since 2 Years Ago Is Actually Startling & Shocking At The Same Time...I Can't Believe What I Have Learned & How Much Better I Know Myself But That Being Said...I Still Have Many Questions & Problems To Solve...But With Each Day Comes New Struggles,New Hope & Perhaps New Solutions To Old Or Existing Problems...You Just Have To Open Up Yourself To The Possibilities That Things Will Get Better & Even When You Think Things Can't Get Any Worse...Ding!...They Do Get Better...Even If Some Days That Just Means Being Able To Cook Your Own Dinner Or Wash Your Hair Or Sweep The Floor...Whatever Each Day Brings...Celebrate Every Accomplishment With Dignity & Happiness & Know That You Accomplished Something Today That Maybe You Couldn't Do Yesterday...Be Strong & Stay Positive!...
*For My Soul Searching Layout-I Used:
*Hayrides & Smiles-Allison Pennington
*Autumn Goodies-Elements-Paula Kesselring
*Rhodes-Rebecca McMeen
*Monthly Newsletter WA-August-Word Art World(1 Item Used)
