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MrsPeel

MrsPeel

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I'm still around.
I know I have been a really REALLY bad friend as I haven't spoken to many of you in the past few days... things got complicated as Sarita (my DD who just had the second operation for a failed one last year) had two serious bleeding incidents and I had to abandoned the computer to make sure she doesn't move much....
For those of you who don't know, I'm disabled and most of my time I spend in bed... we have no home help at the moment so I'm depending on her friends who are being a treasure and have been coming over to help me....
When the second incident happened (you mothers out there will know how your hurt breaks when your child is in pain) I remembered a story my mum always tells me about one of the operations I had when I was a toddler.
She said I wouldn't stop crying so she prayed, prayed and prayed and then she promised to compromise on certain things if I stopped crying...so I promised I would stop smoking.
The only time I successfully quit was when I knew I was pregnant...
I didn't smoke until Sarita was 15 months.... when her dad was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis and things started getting really bad in our lives....
since then I have tried countless times.... never was able to hold it for longer than a week or so...but now I have committed to Higher Power I NEED to keep this.

Her bleeding is gone down to a very minimal, she is going every day to the nurses to have dressing changed & packed (which is because no stitches this time, they are letting it heal from inside out) and I haven't smoke these past few days (I'm not counting or I ll get even more stressed out)
My body isn't coping very well with being up so much so by the time I get to the computer I don't really want much but shut down and sleep.... but I have been looking for recipes and found out that you can cook in advance for a week and the meals will hold in the fridge....
(not so sure I ll do that with fish though)
and I have lots of recipes to share and some chatting to do about all the silly stuff Sarita watches on tele..... (we are more than anything feasting on NCIS!!!!! but she watches some stuff I had never seen before like Goggle box?) hilarious) and some reading we have been doing so I will try my very very best to catch up with everyone's galleries and even try scrap a page or two...
just wanted to say I'm not ignoring anyone, I miss being around like crazy but need all the strength I can gather to get us through these next couple of weeks, so I still will be blessed if you keep us in your prayers, your positive thoughts, and energy to help keep us strong.

I can see God working His way into our lives as this has given way to restore some parts of our relationship which weren't all that well....we have spoken a lot and now trying to keep strong to get her through this as soon as we can.... I didn't want to post anything on Facebook until I spoke to my parents, that's why I haven't much spoken to any of you there either or even answer many emails.
Thanks YOU so sooooooooo very much for all the support you always give us....
I am in a much better mood today and will try ease back to "normal" as soon as I can....
Love you dearly, and miss you, my awesome Pad's family...

Sarita also asked me to tell you thank you so much for all prayers and good wishes, she says she loves you by default LOL (because you keep me happy!!!!)
Sorry about the long post .... (Sara @Tree City - you especially been thinking about shortening it up for you LOL)
 
Good to hear the bleeding has gone down. You know you are in my thoughts and prayers. And I am so happy that this has been a healing time for your relationship. You can do this on the smoking . Keep leaning on God He has more willpower
 
Hugs Cynthia.. glad things are getting better with Sarita... re the quitting, you can do it my friend. It is 18 months for me... believe me never thought I could do it again! :) Keep positive thoughts! Glad you are spending time together as Sarita recuperates!!
 
:hugs. :hugs. Hugs dear. I know you can quit smoking, you are strong. Hugs to Sarita too. Glad things are looking up. Keep each other strong. All prayers for you both.
 
Big hugs to you and Sarita!! I'm always thinking of your and sending thoughts and prayers for the both of you! You are a strong woman, whether you feel like it all the time or not, and you can do this! :heartlub
 
Cyn, you can do this! YOU CAAAAAN DOOOOOOOO IIIIIIIIITTTTTT! :cheer

And as for your posts being too long... no they are not! My post about why I don't want a pet felt long because we (DH and I, that is) had been talking about pets recently, so I already had a running commentary in my head. I felt like I could write a book about the Pros and Cons of having a pet and so I needed to edit myself. YOU don't need to edit anything. You've got a lot going on and you should talk about it. That's important. :glomp

I hope Sarita isn't in too much pain, or at least that the pain lessens as she heals! She is strong, just like her mama!
 
Lots and lots of hugs and good wishes for you and Sarita! You are brave just for committing to quit. And now that you've taken the first step U KNOW you can see it through. I'm always amazed at your capacity to see the positive in every situation life throws your way... I really am inspired by your strength my friend ... You don't need any higher power woman ... Because you are good enough and you will do it! Xoxo
 
You two are absolutely in my thoughts and prayers! I'm sure quitting smoking is hard. I still can't quit eating too much & I've tried so many times. It will all be ok. If you stumble, you'll be forgiven. What matters is that you try. Take it easy, get some rest, and just heal together. All my love to you.
 
I'm so sorry your life is so full of pain, yours and your daughter's. I know you can stop smoking if your really are ready to give it up. You totally deserve to have a life with healthy lungs and full of the breath of life!Our breath is our life so be good to yourself and pray for the willingness to give tobacco up. It's a day at a time and a cigarette at a time. Love and hugs!
 
@MrsPeel You are one AMAZING woman! I've been thinking about you a lot and sending you and Sarita massive amounts of positive, healing vibes and love love love! You do what you need to do and just get your baby girl better. We will all be here rooting for you when things calm down. I just wish I was there so I could come help.

As for quitting smoking......you are a wonderful mother. It's so hard. I've struggled with it for years. It's amazing what lengths a mama bear will go to to protect her cubs and I think that it's fabulous that you chose that compromise.

Lots of love to you and Sarita, we are all missing you but at the same time I think you have a TON of support and love coming your way. And I truly believe in the power of positive, loving thoughts. Together we all make a difference!
 
Sending positive thoughts, hugs and healing vibes your way!
Quitting smoking is one of the hardest things I've ever done. I struggled for almost ten years (sneaking them here and there). You can do it and will love how much better things taste and smell, apart from the benefit to your lungs and breathing capacity (which after five years of not smoking manage to heal themselves).
 
Wow, amazing to read of all the drama you have endured. Sending you prayers and happy thoughts. Great job on the not smoking! Way to go. We will be behind you all the way.
 
It sounds like an incredibly tough time to be adding quitting to the list - but maybe it is the right time and the motivation. You started at a tough time and you can quit at a tough time! Also - I think you are amazing. You always find things to scrap about and to find interest in - and we love that you share those things with us. Hope Sarita continues on the mend. Say hi to her from New Zealand ;-)
 
Positive thoughts and a whole bunch of love.
Cynthia , If you are finding it hard to quit, please do yourself a favour and buy , borrow, beg or steal ( well not steal LOL) a book by Alan Carr called "The easy way to stop smoking." all you have to do is want to quit and read it, and you will, without to much hankering, and with absolutely no desire to smoke again after you finish it.
Without it I would not have quit 25 a day ,in a very short time (in the end it wasn't even very hard ). And 3 people I know (2 of them very good friends) have quit with the same good result. You can do this , and I am sure the book cost less than 4 packets of fags. Another good reason to put the money in a jar.
Please take good care of yourself,as well as Sarita.
 
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