Aww sweetie, it breaks my heart see you hurting so much. I will absolutely keep you in my thoughts, and I want more than anything for you to get positive news on Friday. I worry about you, though, because it seems like you've lost hope. I've never been in your situation; but I am going through some pretty major issues right now too, so I know what the inner turmoil feels like and I know how much it sucks. Roni, grab on to the inner strength that I know you have to help you get through this. Have faith in whatever higher power guides you, and please don't lose hope that you will have a happy ending. And while I'm not a religious person, I do believe in the power of prayer...and you've got a lot of people praying for you. Know that you're not alone, you definitely have us here!
Big, big hugs because I know you could use some right now. Stay strong sweetie.