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meterr

meterr

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My mom, Karen, died six weeks ago after having a stroke. She was already in a nursing home with dementia. I stayed with her every night. It took 24 days in hospice with no food or water for her to pass. She was no longer able to speak and was heavily sedated, but I read to her and just hung out, like a sleepover. I knew she could hear me as she would occasionally smile. She was a fighter. I have conflicted feelings about how it all went down, but I know now she's no longer in pain. Now, my aunt, her older sister by 16 years, Georgina, is in hospice. She has blood cancer and had a severe UTI that caused brain swelling. Before that, she was sharp as a tack. She's far away, and I feel so much guilt for not being there. They both had birthdays in August. After my aunt passes, the only ones left of my childhood family are my baby brother and I. It's been a strange year. I also started a job a few days after my mom died, after being a homemaker since 1989. Making money is nice, but I miss having large chunks of creative time like before. I work from 9 pm to around 5 am, so I also feel I miss out on the regular human functioning time, BUT I really like being at work with only a few others, as I have anxiety, and the more people, the more anxiety! So I have been MIA on the board and in scrapping in general. I even missed out on my 30% off, which I never do! I am going to prioritize doing something creative on my days off. I miss the conversation here, as well as seeing the awesome kits in the store.
 
I am so sorry for you loss. I am glad you were with her.

I'm sorry it has been so much to deal with this year but I hope you know you can always come here to unburden yourself of some of the load. We can't do much practical things maybe but we sure can be a good ear. Take care. :happyhug
 
I’m so sorry. Losing a mother as a daughter is so painful, but having to keep watch for 24 days had to be excruciatingly so. Hugs.
 
I am so sorry for your loss and all that you've had to deal with! Sending you lots of love and hugs! I hope that you are able to find that creative time just for yourself! Or just stop by and chat from time to time. :happyhug
 
I'm so sorry for your loss. I can totally feel your pain. My dad had a stroke at a very young age, 20 years ago; he was in a coma for almost a month, and during that time I realized that there was no coming back. It was better to know that he was finally "free" rather in a state in which he was no longer himself. (I hope it makes sense, because English isn't my native language). I too started working right after his passing, and it helped me not to think. But I can tell you that the pain is still here, even 2 decades later...
I wish you'll find inner peace soon. There was nothing more you could do; staying by her side was the best for you both.
 
I’m so sorry about your mom and your aunt. Sending you all the love. I hope you are able to find the time you want to be creative. Hugs.
 
I'm so sorry about your mom and your aunt, Terri. I hope you are able to find some peace and time to scrap for yourself.
 
I am so sorry for your loss. I just lost a dear friend in almost identical circumstances, although that is nothing compared to the loss of a mother. Sorry about the loss of creative time as well. I hope you can find some balance once the new job situation 'beds in'
 
I am so sorry for your loss Terri and now prayers for your Aunt too. So much for you in a short time. I am happy for you re the job and hope that helps too with things. Just know we are keeping you in our thoughts.
 
I’m so sorry for your loss, and that your aunt also is sick. I hope you’ll take some time for being creative or just stopping by to chat a bit here at the forum. Take care!
 
May your mother's memory be a blessing. The best way to honor her is to live your life to its fullest, including making time for creativity--art journaling can help with the healing, for sure, and we will be here to cheer you on. I know how hard it is to get back into the workforce after decades out of it, so give yourself grace and let us know how it goes!
 
I'm so sorry for the loss of your mom. That is the hardest thing to go through. I am glad that you stopped in and hope you will be able to find time to hang out here. Fortunately, we are open around the clock and there are people all over the world, so always someone around all the time!
 
I'm so sorry. Losing your mom must be so hard. I'm glad that you could be with her and have some quality time together, by staying with her and reading to her. Sorry to hear your aunt is very ill. Like you said, it must be a weird thing to realize you and your brother are the only ones left of your generation and those above that. I wish you a lot of strength, peace, and support.
I'm glad you dropped by. Hope you'll get some well deserved creative time soon!
 
So sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the anguish. Thanks for sharing your heart with us. Sending a big squishy cyber hug. Blessings as you find a new normal.
 
I lost my Mom the same way in 2021. I think I know what you mean by conflicted feelings. I hope you remember lots of happy memories to cheer you.
 
Oh my gosh! I'm so sorry for the loss of your Mom and to hear about your aunt too. That's a lot in a short amount of time! I'm so glad you were able to be with your Mom at the end and loved seeing that she would smile when you were reading to her and spending time with her. What a blessing you were to her! Then to start a job right after, phew! I love that you found something with less people for your anxiety though. Hopefully once you get settled with all the changes, you can find time to sneak in creativity more too. I know sometimes when I'm busier, I'm better about scheduling time for creativity because I NEED it! Glad to hear from you!
 
Hugs. You've been through a lot with loss and change. Hope you find time to feed your soul with creativity and peace. I know about loss, losing my mom and my granddaughter was rough (it still is but is better) and finding time for myself has been crucial for my well being.
 
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