Carilyne I can totally understand your inability to get into the spirit. It seems like here at my house we can do nothing to better ourselves and for every step we take forward we get punched in the face kicked in the gut and stomped on all at the same time. I actually took my frustration and my anger to a layout and believe it or not I felt better after. No it doesn't solve the problems but it allowed me to vent where here I am always trying to be strong for my family. I really felt like I was going to bust and it eased the feeling.
In the last four weeks my husband totaled our truck, got laid off, lost our insurance, I got denied again for disability, and we also got a letter from his insurance saying that the accident wasnhis fault and we are going to be sued. Our insurance was a ten thousand dollar policy and because of the nature of the accident we have been told insurance will only cover a portion of it so we need to get a lawyer. If that wasn't enough the man (my husband) is driving me insane here at home! Since he has been laid off he has done nothing but sit and play video games and mess up any cleaning I have done within an hour of it being done! I swear why can men not show a little bit of respect for the work we put into making a housenanclean home? Then when I say something about it I'm the bad guy! Uggghhhh. On top of all this when he applied for his unemployment he went to what he thought was the unemployment website. I told him multiple times he was not in the right place it didn't look right and it was telling him he had to sign up for credit checks etc... He argued with me and got irate about it and I finally said okay do it your way. He filled out all this stuff and still could not get it to show him that he had applied for unemployment so instead of asking for my help and admitting he was wrong he wanted to go to his mother's house for help! I drove him over there and again when they headed back to the same site told them both it was the wrong site. I said I thought they were on a fake site they both then argued with me and spoke to me like I was an idiot. So after three hours of them inputting all his personal information including his SS# and DL# DOB and all that info they still could not figure it out. Finally I took the laptop and went to the real site answered all the questions and gave him his confirmation and pin numbers. He had the nerve to get angry with me and ask me why I didn't tell him that in the first place? So now all his personal info has been entered into no man's land and I have told him he better call the bank and notify them and call and get some credit monitoring. Of course he got angry because I suggested he do it and it has not been done. Due to all of this and more in the last month I had to create this layout! Which I posted here and on FB where I was immediately told by my mother that she hated it. Her words were its scary and ugly. LOL Oh well it was for me not her.
https://the-lilypad.com/gallery/data/500/DejectedBeatDown600.jpg
Maybe if you do the same you can release some stress and move forward as I have been trying to do myself. I hope you are able to find your Christmas fun and spirit soon. Hugs my friends
I am kind of a "fake it til you make it" person. I have intentionally done something christmas-y every day. Some days it wasn't that fun...lol but I did it and I know I will be glad that I did eventually. I definitely recommend the Christmas movie marathon. There is nothing happier than Christmas movies!! full of love and joy and people being blessed. so special. 
