Hi Everyone...
I feel for me everyday I am learning something new...I just said that actual sentence to my Dad yesterday...Funny!... Life is all about learning,movement,growing,healing and becoming...at least it is for me...Especially since my hubby passed away now 2 years ago...Life always seems to be moving forward at a fast pace...no matter where you are in life...I also feel that if I am not learning something...then I am not growing...and that would mean in my case,that I am not healing through my life experiences and trying to become the person,I am trying to now find and become...Man,life is so very complicated...isn't it?...So my layout here for this challenge stems from me learning how to pick myself up from the ground each day when I fall down... [ Not literally,at least I hope not...I never want to fall ever again...but I digress ]
I found a photo of myself that is about a year old now,taken by accident while I was fiddling with learning how to use the camera function on my first phone that I got last year...As you can probably see,I had been crying a lot...my face and nose are really red and my under eye circles are very dark almost black...I did not retouch this photo on purpose,so the raw feelings could be seen and felt,especially for me to see and visually see how far I have now become...I had just gotten out of the hospital after being there for 26 days,when I was only supposed to be there for 1 day for Gall Bladder surgery...This one doctor who was very incompetent with my surgery and left an open bleed inside me and when I woke up in recovery I knew something was very wrong...I was in way too much pain...The nurses were right there waiting for me to wake-up and I screamed in pain and an ultra sound taken right away revealed the bleed and back to surgery I went,after already having 2 hours of surgery...and giving verbal consent for that and for more blood transfusions...with witnesses...and more surgery and a longer recovery...It is complicated to explain [I would need at least another page here to explain all that happened to me in the aftermath ]...but it took a long time to heal from all the mistakes that were made and because of that...I almost died 3 times in the 26 days ahead...in my process of recovery...
I feel I have come along way since then and maintained a strength that I never knew I had or was capable of...to survive that,my original fall,broken neck and arm,learning to walk again and the long recovery that followed...and to have survived through the darkness of my crippling grief...to get to where I am now...I am definitely a survivor...
Thank You! for this challenge...
My Credits Include :
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Hear My Voice 4 : Learning /
Hear My Voice 13 : Imagining /
Hear My Voice 3 : Healing /
Hear My Voice 23 : Becoming /
Hear My Voice 20 : Loving /
Hear My Voice 6 : Remembering : Collections By : Rachel Jefferies & Lynn Grieveson
*Fonts I Used : *Ana's Rusty Typewriter Regular / Averia Libre Light / Baby Monsta Regular / Baltimore Typewriter Bold Regular
*Photo : Me
