kit: Highlight Reel by Bella Gypsy:
https://the-lilypad.com/Highlight-Reel-Digital-Scrapbook-Kit.html
journaling:
What a Year 2015 was. It is stacked full of memories. There are so many days that are highlights of the year. If I had to stop and reflect back at all the times. I would have to say that my favorite highlight of the year, I would have to say was the day that my shoulders were relieved of the Monkey on my back carrying a secret for over seven years is a long time to carry a burden.
There were many days I wanted to tell my secret to my best friend so he would know and then when we talked something would be said so I would decide no I am better off not saying anything and then keeping it a secret longer. Through all my time I never lied I just would side step the question because I wasn’t ready to face it.
Then when we saw each other because we know each other so well we both knew it was an issue that was going to be confronted. I am so grateful that it got confronted. I feel bad for withholding the secret for so long
and having all the time pass by. There were words that were said that
day that I could not believe were said between two people that have loved
one another for over 15 years. Yet we both are so attached to one another that we both forgive the words and actions and move forward.
The most positive thing out of the secret being out is that we truly will forever have our bond. The question is what will come of the secret being out. Neither of us know.. The one thing we know is we both truly want the same outcome for us to once again be united. There are steps we both have to take to get to be united but in 15 years we have never truly left
one another’s side. We have never seperate because we
lost our love for one another, it was never your fault or my
fault it was just little things that would come in our life and
we would end up with us not on the same page again. Then a year or two later we would stop by to say hi and we would be back together again.
That is what truly makes my secret so odd because for seven years, you would ask and let me sidestep you never pinned an answer out of me.
If you had then my secret would have been out way before now.
I asked you why now are you confronting me.. The ironic thing is your
friend has became my confident but yet I guess a 38 year friendship trumps a five year friendship as far as keeping secrets. The day you told me he is who told you what he THOUGHT but I had to promise you that I would not tell him I know HE TOLD YOU.. I was not mad at OUR friend.. I was truly relieved with him telling you because even though we got in our biggest disagreement EVER.. He did you and me a favor because he got the monkey off my back and got the secret out. So no more burden now it is just looking forward to what will come in the years to come but especially for us in 2016. I truly Love You more than anything. I have ran from my feelings, hid my feelings, and ran from emotions but no matter how far I shield them, you have always seen through them and ran just as fast to chase me and catch me and hold me and I truly just want you to be my teddybear forever. My love for you has weathered every storm and never faded away in the sunset; it has only grown stronger and I know that no matter what comes in life; my faith and belief in you will never turn tide and wash away it will only grow stronger and closer. I promise to you I am not hiding anymore. The only thing I am doing is embracing US and know that I truly LOVE You and will ALWAYS LOVE YOU! So bring on 2016 and every year after.
