MOC Day 29 I Stand on Pink Heels

Journaling:
I have been on a journey for many years to finally be comfortable in my own skin. I've had bouts of feeling that way, but it never seemed to stick. I have always let my weight be my confidence booster or detractor. I never felt fully feminine and never really knew why. In 2015 my Mom died, and for the next year, I was floundering in everything. I went through a deep depression where I was functional, but just not there. When I finally came out of it, I had nearly lost everything I held dear. I began right then and there to find me. I did a lot of praying and experimenting and I realized that one of the reasons I never felt feminine is that I rarely dressed that way. I have always loved seeing a woman in heels and stockings and wearing flowy dresses with matching purses and accessories. I started doing that by buying vintage stockings on eBay and buying heels. I started buying skirts and dresses, and suddenly I felt more feminine. My husband was THRILLED, and finally, I had the key for me. I had confidence in my appearance and I had the knowledge that I was okay just as I am. That is all I needed to make it stick. I also learned that I didn't HAVE to dress up every day. It was an attitude of femininity that translated to the way I walked and talked as well. I found the girl in me and she won't be leaving again!

Credits:
January Memory Pockets Monthly: Emerge
Rachel Jefferies | And So Here I Stand
Rachel Jefferies | Lynn Grieveson Hear My Voice 08 Carol Singing
Rachel Jefferies | Lynn Grieveson Hear My Voice 07 Connecting
Rachel Jefferies | Lynn Grieveson Hear My Voice 01 Questioning