*358 Words*
Journaling reads:
The longer I’ve been a stay at home mom, the stronger the itch grows. I’m so ready to do something different! To do something for myself! I spent tens of thousands of dollars on my degrees and years of my life but I shoved it all to the side when my babies were born. I don’t regret it for a minute but the older they get, the less it feels like they need me at home and the greater my urge to go back to work, or even back to school grows. I just want to do something stimulating, interesting and challenging again! I volunteer at the school and being on creative teams is some sort of personal enrichment but not enough. But being a military spouse and moving every couple of years, with no support system around makes it darn near impossible to get and keep the kind of job I want anyway.
I know that later in life I am not going to wish I worked more. I’m going to be grateful that I was home every night to help with homework, for every call from the school about broken glasses or sick kiddos. I’m here to make healthy dinners, tuck them in at night and off to school every day. I never miss a school performance and chaperone every field trip. And when that’s all said and done, I still have time left over to play with them, snuggle, read and sing to them. I’m a hands-on mom.
On the same line, by being here for our children, I’m here for my husband. He never has to worry about taking off work, or that the children’s needs being only half met. Because I’m home, he can put 100% of himself to his career while he’s at work. It’s a good balance for all of us. Except for that little itch inside of me So I read, I create, I remind myself that I am important where I am. Some day my time will come and I can enjoy it without guilt and regret but for right now I am exactly where I’m supposed to be.
Credits:
M3 Feb 19: Mixed Media Artistry - Rachel Jefferies
M3 Feb 19: Watercolor Botanicals - Rachel Jefferies
