MOC 2023 Day 10 Photos & Words
1.10.2023
Photo & Words Challenge
Materials Used:
Hear My Voice Hurting Rachel Jefferies & Lynn Grieveson
Urban Scribbles ABC CD Muckosky
All Time Low Amy Wolff
Journaling says:
Childhood wasn't a good time for me. My home wasn't a safe place. I spent a lot of time in the woods. That was my safe zone. I have a lot of baggage from it that I'm not going to share in this space.
In 2020 I did a mentorship program with Sabrina Ward Harrison. In that 6 months I did a lot of inner work and did a lot of journaling. I spent some time recently reviewing those words after some time of processing my feelings. I think they are so appropriate for where I am ready now to move forward with some different things in my life.
7.24.2020 :: Where I am now. I want to share my life story. That is pain and joy mixed together with God's hand all over it, in it and thru it. The times I could have given up. The choice to keep going. To share the beauty of the world in the unique way that I see it. Nature and how it has been one of the saving graces in my life.
I am still afraid but I'm not afraid of saying it out loud that I am afraid. I am willing to stare down hard things and face the feelings. I can sit in them and know that I will come out the other side.
I am the real me. Flaws, scars, pain, hurt, sorrow, joy, love, struggles, insecurities and strengths all together into one fantastic person. I am talented and can show those emotions thru art…both digitally and with textile.
I don't care what other people think of me. I like me. I'm gonna do me.
I will be gentle with myself. I am replacing the old tapes of criticism with new tapes of loving myself, being gentle with myself, helping the hurt parts of Jen work thru those feelings so that Jen can be all that she wants to be. Jen wants to create real authentic art not holding anything back. Jen will know that struggles come and go but she can live thru it. Jen is not afraid to really love the people in her life. Jen is gentle with herself when she stumbles, falls and fails. Jen is ok to take time off!!
I want to express my story…pain from the child Jen…into a wonderful transformation into the artist I have always wanted to be. I see her in her studio working on fabric, dresses, ripped pieces of cloth and lots and lots of stitches and thread. I have wounds but they have been stitched together by God's love and the scars are just markers of events in life like the rings of a tree.
She knows who she is and isn't afraid to show it.
