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Translation:
Hell me, it's just me. 40 years later. I just want you to know that everything will be fine. It will be quite a lot of years, but you will learn why you feel so odd and weird. You have ADHD and that means your brain isn't really working the same way as others. You are NOT stupid, it's the reality that isn't adjusted to your needs. I know, you will feel stupid in many years ahead, and not understand how other people can do so much without getting tired. You haven't had the best basis in life, but it will take yet another couple of years before you realize that. But you should know, that's not your fault either, you didn't choose your mother. Just hold on. You will find your way and you will have a good life. The road there is bumpy. Soon you will meet a boy, who you think is the love of your life. He's not, and he will hurt you in a way you've never been hurt before. You will, like a fool, fight for your love, but you two are not supposed to be. But remember, even though it hurts like crazy, he's an important part of your life. In the beginning, when you are happy, he really loves you. He will teach you that you can be loved, without reservation, just because you are you. Without you having to do anything to deserve it. This is a completely new feeling for you. The five years you get together will change you and your life completely. You will become stronger and braver. But the most important impact is the fact that he makes you move to Norrköping. Partly because you will move far from your family and can start to break free, and partly because there, in Norrköping, the love of your life lives. The love you will find with him is bigger than anything your brain ever could imagined. You two will become larger than everything and together you will make a wonderful little kid. When I'm writing this, we have lived together for 33 years, and we hope for many more. Only life itself knows for how long. I know you worry about all and nothing. That will get an explanation too. You don't have just ADHD, you also have GAD. It forces you to think about what might happen all the time, you need to feel prepared. The problem is that this will keep your brain busy worrying and worrying, and you will be tired constantly. It will take years and years for you to understand that the way you live your life, that's not normal. Other people doesn't think and think and think about everything that might happen. You've grown up, feeling that you all the time have to understand what other people think, and adjust to that. But, hey, during dark time, remember: you are always worth the best. Trust that you will get out on the other side. You will get CBT, and with the tools you get then, you will finally be able to conquer the world. You will learn how to weed out the persons who take more from you than they give. You will understadn that you are fine the way you are, you are loved and worthy of happiness. I'm glad and grateful that you were so strong and brave, that you never gave up, and that you wanted to survive. Now we are here, the year is 2023. The reality right now isn't the best, there are war, energy crisis and other miseries. But you've been a good girl. You've worked through your problems, and now we can be happy and satisfied with life, despite it all. Thank you! You did all the work, that made med strong and safe. Be proud of yourself!
