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Jan 10: Photos + Words (dear me)

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creating this for MOC day 10, that can be combined with Super Speedy Slow Scrap | Jan 10. TFL!! my journaling, badly translated by Google: When looking at my photos, I find it difficult to recognize myself. So much has happened in the last few years, especially post-pandemic, I feel like I got into a mode of just surviving, I can't seem to connect with who I really was, or still want to be. The most notable difference is the weight gain, I don't know if this is linked to depression or anxiety, and in the midst of everyday life, I go through panic attacks, anxiety triggers and neglecting my self care. I think that a smile often hides layers of pain and sadness that most of the time we don't even realize, until we look at a photo and think: who is this person looking back at me?? I put courage as a goal for this year, because I know that there are a lot of things wrong, and it's not just cosmetic, I have health problems that I haven't had for a long time again, and that also makes me sadder and more worried... I hope get the courage to make the necessary changes for my own good, I've already started making appointments with doctors, I'm going to have to change old eating and thinking habits, and soon our canine daughter will come home, who knows now with this giant change I'll take courage for the others that I also need to do!!

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Hear My Voice: 07 - Connecting | The Complete Digital Scrapbooking Collection by Lynn Grieveson & Rachel Jefferies
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Messy Marks: Date Stamps 2023 PLUS BONUS | Rachel Jefferies
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If I can encourage you, I had a diagnosis that also necessitated weight loss, walking and making eating changes. I lost 14kgs and still am shocked when I see how I look in photos now as opposed to hiding from photos for those pandemic years. If I can do it so can you! I see a beautiful strong woman looking back at me in that photo.
 
@Ferdy - you are still beautiful. I, too, gained weight during the pandemic and have been beating myself up mentally about it. I went to renew my driver's license today and weighed myself this morning. For the first time ever, my driver's license actually reflects my current weight. Yes, I know I need to make some changes to be healthier and have more energy. It's a mindset change first and no more diets just intentional eating.
 
I feel your pain and I am hoping heartily for you to have better days. This page is lovely, you've told your story beautifully and you can change your story. I believe in you, now to get you to believe in you. You can do it. P.S. You're beautiful.
 
@Ferdy , I think I know exactly how you feel... The last year was a very hard one for me too, and I put myself "on hold" so I can take care of my grandmother. I am sure you will find the courage to change things in your life and get to where you set out to be. Take care of your health, because it's the most important thing. :bk
 
I hope this year is an easier and brighter one for you (and all of us!). What a great take on the challenge. x
 
This is such a fantastic photo of you, but I especially loved reading your heartfelt journaling on here. I can completely relate as well. The pandemic was HARD and I definitely did a lot of stress eating over the last couple of years and it shows! I too need to make some seriously changes and take care of myself too! Sometimes the getting started is the hardest part!
 
@Karen @LynnG @Roxana @trekmom @flowersgal thank you all so so much for your words and support, it really means a lot to me!! I wish I could express myself better in English, but well...let me just say that Lilypad is the best place in the digiland! much love to you all!:heartslub
 

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