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- CREDITS: Emerge - a Mixed Media Project Kit Rachel Jefferies & Lynn Grieveson with one element from their Begin project kit (lady's face)
JOURNALING: After weeks of waiting, it’s the day before the new girl starts. I’m not anxious about having someone new in the office. She seems nice enough. She will probably catch on quickly. I’m just worried that I won’t be able to explain things well. I’m afraid I’ll get blamed if she messes up, because I didn’t show her correctly. I’m afraid that what I know is woefully inadequate, because I just haven’t done enough of all the things this role can do. I don’t want to let everyone down. Then again, I didn’t have someone by my side to help me learn the role. I had to do the online courses and look everything up. I failed so much, but things are fixable. I’ve learned that much since going back to work 14 years ago. I’m concerned about spiritual things. I want to be known as the Christian I am. I want to represent the Lord well in my work. I want there to be enough evidence to convict me of being a Christian if it ever went to trial. I want her to know my values right up front so there won’t be any confusion. I want her to feel welcome to make the role what she wants it to be, make changes, work with her FA the way she wants things done. I am trying to remind myself that things will emerge over time. They’ll develop into what they need to be. I know I will need to hold everything loosely to let things evolve as they will. I’m sure she’s coming with a teachable heart, but I want to learn as well. I don’t want to be an old fogey that can’t adapt. I want to be mindful of the age difference, but not let it color my opinions of work ethic or her needs. I am sure she will work well with her FA because they are both young and determined. I don’t want to get in the way of their relationship or let my feelings about the industry or the firm leak through. Because, let’s face it. I’m a cynic. This is not really my world. I just landed here to serve the best I can. So, it’s time...time to let the next chapter emerge.
