dreams

Everything was from the January M3 kit + add ons.

About this page:

I needed to get my emotions out last night. I feel like right now I\'m just running scared and unsure. I\'m happy and I\'m not happy depending on the day or the moment. Maybe I just don\'t know what I am? Mostly I think I\'m just scared. Afraid that I\'ve made bad choices. Afraid that I\'ll end up with nothing to show for anything. Afraid that I\'ve spent all this time and money on something that I\'m just not good at and will never be satisfied with. Afraid that my family is falling apart around me and I can not stop it from happening because I\'m too busy trying to finish school, get a better paying job, and save us from financial ruin. I can\'t stop or it will all fall down. The dark background is my fear, the splashes of color are the moments of happiness... Dreams? I have no room left for them, I need solid ground, I need surity of action. I don\'t know which way to go, my compass is turned upside down. Everything in me is shouting just Go Go Go and don\'t stop, but I don\'t know where to go. Once upon a time my life made sense, now it's just chaos.

Thanks for listening. I just needed to get it out there.