A Breath Away

A tribute page to my friend Joan. She died of colon cancer 10 years ago. Her wedding day was the last day she had symptom free, the lower back aches began on her honeymoon and she died 1 year later. She was 32 years old.
Journaling:

10 years. How could so many years have passed when my heart still aches like it was yesterday? The years drift by and I think of you, always. All the living that I have done since we lost you. All that I wanted to share with you. i miss you. 10 years. How can it be ten years? *Would you have had kids? Probably, they would have been so cute. We would have seen countless chick flicks, had play dates and exchanged thousands of emails. Oh how i ache for those things. Today it is raining outside, which makes my mind wander even more and I find myself remembering all that we did share. I still remember meeting you that first time at the water park, you were so sweet and funny. We became instant friends. You were like that with everyone you met.
You will forever live in my heart and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you in some way. I still weep when I look at your photo, longing for more time with you, wishing I was there in the end to hold your hand and say goodbye. I havent visited your grave in a long time, I cant bear to think of you there, you arent there, you are the warm summer breezes, the quiet of fresh fallen snow, the rain tapping against my window. I know there are moments when you are with me.
I speak to your mom every now and again, I like staying in touch with her. I know you would love that. I worry about her on the farm alone since your dad died. That must have been some reunion when you saw him again. He has missed you so.
Joan, there are so many things I want to share with you, but most of all, I just want to have you here again, being my friend.
Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you're there
A breath away not far
To where you are
-Josh Groban
Credits:
Heathert-No regrets
Designs By Doodelle-Kissing Birds
Katie Pertiet-Naturally Krafty no7
Taylormade-Lemonade Stand
Sahlin Studio-Grateful, So This Is Love, So Blessed
Vinnie Pearce- Placid
Creashens-Torn Bits no2
Leora Sanford-Ciao Bella Spring