***My Continuing Journey of Grief Art Therapy...Reflections of my Memories,Grief,Sadness & Anxiety...
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My life is so messed-up...that I totally forgot that I even purchased some of this month's BYOC pieces...Either way...I was gonna skip creating a layout,considering today is the last day of the month...but I was so moved by something that happened...& it inspired me to create one more layout about my Beloved Ray...I may continue to create more grief layouts...I don't know yet...Only time will answer that question...
The 3 designers that I chose...Are so very different...You wouldn't think they would go together on a page...Let alone a page about Memories & Grief...By now,any of you who have been following my series...You know what happened to my world...It was rocked! by surprising tragedy...
***Here is my full story once more...All about my Beloved Ray,what happened to him & what happened to me : if you haven't already read it :
https://the-lilypad.com/forum/galle...a-challenge-june-2023-prompt-my-grief.542895/
***I miss my Beloved Ray...so much it hurts...
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Very Personal Reflections********
I have a terrible headache right now because of all the crying I did today & tonight...& it just continued as I created this layout...I wanted this layout to be different than all the others...This layout is Photoless...I hope the imagery & words...speak to my feelings upon creating this page...
My Memories Of You Layout : Each piece represents something important to me...I will try to explain in as short as I can...
1. The Swirly Journaling : is all about my thoughts & how I truly feel about my Beloved Ray...right now...
2. Each word bit or word piece : showcases all of my grief & depression of feelings...Soco's word bits were perfect to describe exactly how I was feeling...in creating this layout ...
3. The Strong Man/Lifeguard : that represents my Beloved Ray in so many ways : The Beach was his favorite place to be...swimming that is : he was also my "Life Guard" in real life : he guarded my life with steadfast love & protection : and he also saved my life : literally : on several occasions...
4. The "Lady Cameo" represents me...& my love of actual cameos & my personality...Kinda vintage & a bit lady-like...
5. 'Nerve Troubles" almost self-explanatory...the anxiety & depression I now feel...
6. The Rainy Dark Clouds & Papers with the Raindrops : are representative of my tears
7. Broken Hearts : self-explanatory...my broken heart
8. "Develop A Strong He-Man Voice" : Ray always used to tell me that I was stronger than I thought I was capable of being...& to use my voice...whatever that meant to me...In my case...my scrapbooking pages & my expressions of emotions...Plus this describes Ray's voice...He had a very strong,what I call...he-man voice...& I can still hear his beautiful voice...while he was watching one of his favorite old movies...again...and he loved listening to old classic radio...and he loved classic cars...He was a classic,classy gentleman...all the way...this just reminded me so much of him & who he was...So I had to include it here in this layout..."Paula's Stamps"were just perfect...here...
9. The Pencils & Protractors : Ray loved to write using regular old classic pencils...He was certainly old-school...Over the years,we often donated to local charities...there were always packs of pencils,along with the scribblers that the kids needed...Things sure have changed...
Credits : BYOC Pieces : August 2023
*Mixed Brushes #10 / Mixed Bits #13 /Paper Pack #18 : Paula Kesselring
*Missing You Kit : Designed By Soco [the 4 broken hearts + 1 word strip were strongly brightened & 2 other word strips were changed into black & white : to better coordinate with my layout ]
*Swirly Journalers : Scrapping With Liz [I used #3]
*Font : I used for my regular journaling & my journaling in the "Swirly Journalers" : is the same font : only difference : One is "beveled down" & the other one is not : Myriad Pro Bold Semi Extended Italic
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