before I go to sleep

remake of this page here

Kits used are

Sunny with Blue Skies link

Treasured Moments by Sahlin Studio and Sugarplum Paperie link

Olive Tree by Sara Gleason link



photo of my son



wording is all about my son, at 1 year he talked did the normal things a year old did, but by 2, this all stopped and he went into his own little world.

He is now 7, autistic, completely non verbal, apraxic, dyspraxic, dyslexic, torretts, asperguous, hypermobil, CLD (chronic lung diesease)

but most importantly he is my son and my world

journaling reads:-


Dear Mummy, don't you cry now and Daddy don't you weep.
I want to whisper in your ear before I go to sleep.
I know that when I came here I was perfect in every way.
and you were so proud Daddy when you held me on that day.
And Mummy when you kissed me and wrapped me up so tight,
I felt as if I belonged here, and everything was right.
When things got really scary and I began to slip away
I saw your face dear Mummy as you knelt by me to pray.
And Daddy, I always notice when you wipe away a tear,
or watch the other little boys as they run and laugh and cheer.
I may not be able to tell you how much I love you so,
or even show you how I feel and what I really know.
But when you hold me Mummy at night
when all is still

I hear your dear heart beating and I know that all is well.
And Daddy when you take me to the park to run and play
I know that you still love though the words I cannot say.
So Daddy don't you cry now and Mummy don't you weep,
I want to tell you something before I go to sleep.
I may be sort of different, and you may not understand.
I know that I am not that child that you and Daddy planned.
But I love you both so very much and I know you love me too
and one day when this life is done you will feel my love for you.
I know the future is unknown and you will always have to be
the ones that love and listen and take good care of me.
The road we walk is rough sometimes and you cry a lot of tears,
but one day we will turn and laugh as we look back over the years.
So Mummy don't you cry now, and Daddy please don't weep...
I want to say,
I LOVE YOU!
before I go to sleep.