kit: The Doctor is In by Kristin Aagard
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journaling:
I hear foot steps coming. I wonder who is going to come in the room. Oh I remember them. They have been here before. They come hear a lot and talk to each other. They are great at sharing secrets with each other. I am so lucky I get to hear every word without them knowing I am here. I am so lucky to hear it.
I have heard it all. I have heard them talk like they had no affection. I have heard their tears. I have seen the tears from her face. I wish I had arms so I could tap her on the shoulder and tell her it would be okay. If only she didn’t lay in the room by herself.
I have seen her tell herself it will be okay. She picks herself up and brushes her hair puts makeup on and leaves the room to face the world. I hear her from a distance laugh and hear the smile in her voice. Once she comes back to the room, she throws herself on the bed in front of me. The bed will bump me sometime from the weight of her heart as she cries herslef to sleep. I am so happy that I am a wall and only observe and listen but don’t have to feel the pain people feel when their heart is broken.
Then I hear the phone ring. I so hope it is something that makes her smile because I love to hear her smile and see her happy and dancing through life. It is him. I hear it in her voice. Oh yeah she is drying her tears. She is going to hte hair stylist and doing her hair. I hear her telll people it is because she needed a change but oh how I have seen this several times (differnt shades and differnet styles) but always because he makes her happy and enjoy life.
I have seen it all from my walls within her house and her room. Hopefully this time is the real thing that will put an end to the gloom because she has owned this house for many years and the furniture has changed, the knick knacks have changed, the pictures on me have chnaged but through it all I have stood hear watching her grow.
I have loved to watch her journey of life. Some I hated when they came in. Others I wondered if they would meet up to his measurement. Others I thought close match but none had the reaction in her step and view on life so here I am observing them again. I sure hope it works because they really are always with each other when the other needs a hand. He is great at wiping away her tears and I see in his face that when they are tears he has caused I see the pain in his face.
