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- June 2024 - Journaling Challenge - Present
Journaling - When Todd and I announced our engagement, my parents offered to buy my dress as an engagement gift. Because of the distance, we made loads of plans after Christmas 2004 to meet vendors and try on dress with my family and friends. We didn't know that my dad would be diagnosed with colon cancer early that December and die two weeks following his diagnosis. My mom was adamant that everything we had planned would go forward because I was going back to California and we needed to make these decisions. A friend wanted to go to Priscilla of Boston to try on dresses so I agreed even though I didn't plan on trying any on, but Mom insisted.
When I tried on this dress, I felt beautiful. I felt amazing and it was everything I had pictured, but it was over-budget so I wasn't planning on buying it or even asking if we could. Mom said it was the first time I had smiled that month. According to her, my whole face was happy. She asked me if I wanted it. I said yes, but that I didn't need it and it was over the budget they had given me. She said, “f*** it. We deserve to have a happy day.” Mom isn't one to curse. My sisters and friends looked at her and that was it.
And she bought me my wedding dress. I never imagined my dad wouldn't see me in my wedding dress. He was so happy about my engagement, but that bittersweet moment of just joy made the hard days easier.
Our wedding was beautiful and I could feel happy. I still feel that bittersweet sadness when I think of my dress or see our wedding pictures. It's been almost 20 years. Still a sweet sadness.
Font - Remington Noiseless
Elements and Papers - MMA Sweet December Stories (R Jefferies), MMA This Winter's Love, SB Grief (Collaboration) Documenting Autumn Glitterbets (A Pennignton), Bittersweet (NBK Designs)
Styles - Shadows (Mommyish)
Actions - Twisted Action (P Kesselring)
