So, for those that don't know, I've been married for 23 years. On Sept 20th, we finally separated, it's a very long story and honestly, quite strange if you are very traditional. I realized I needed a safe space and came back 'home'. This will always be my home. However, in the next days after coming back and trying to re-indent my "butt grove" into the "The Sofa of the LilyPad", the ex and I started trying to work things out. Long story short, he's still with his girlfriend, I'm still alone and now working two jobs because I never expected to be single so I never saved up. I am finally just becoming aware of all the gaslighting, lying, bullying and emotional manipulation that had been going on and while trying to bring these to light to fix us, he has done nothing but stall (I said I would NOT entertain any relationship with him while he was still with his girlfriend) and tear me down over and over again. In short, I dropped down a very dark hole again and I didn't want to mark my "comeback" here with negativity and sad scrap pages. My full time job is very physical and in person, so I'm getting accustomed to that as my health isn't the best for that sort of thing, but my "main" job can't give me full time until after January. Then I'll be able to work from home full time there. I'll probably keep the two full time jobs until I just can't to try and build up some money. However... I applied for a loan at a bank and am looking to get enough to make an offer on a duplex with my brother. I've had to jump through a few hoops, but the lady at the bank thinks that I MAY be able to skim by after the "hoops" are completed. I just have to get one more referral letter from my new employer, the rest has been met. They're selling the whole duplex and he'll live on one half and I and the kids on the other. It's a great deal, it's also a LOT of work because it needs TLC, hence why it's so "affordable". At this point, getting OUT of this house and away from the immediate stress and having to deal with my ex constantly in a physical place is the best option for me. I'm still "gearing" up for MoC though. lol. Even if I don't "complete" in time, I'll be scrapping along with everyone else. Thank you for your continued patience with me as I bounce in and out. Know that I'm thinking of all of you and sending hugs and positive vibes!