You have make such a fabulous LO about this important event in your life. Thank you so much for sharing the whole story with us and feeling so "strong".. English is not my mother tongue so I may not use the good words.
This is so beautiful. I went through something similar with my dear Mom four years ago and I feel your pain. It's interesting how the desire to avoid suffering can be so helpful in terms of perspective. You're very strong and brave. Thank you for sharing this story. My thoughts are with you and your family.